Can I just skip this part of my life and wake up on my wedding day?

Because waiting for you to come into my life is like, forever. And it feels like you'll never appear anyway.

Would you?


If yes, when? (Pesen tak sabar. But don't bother answering it.)


Because heart being broken for thousand times makes me wonder, who's gonna be the one (if 'the one' is really exist) I'm going to marry one day. Honestly, I never think about this until just now.


Met a lot of people along the way and makes me wonder. Sometimes I wonder, what if I marry someone that I don't love, macam orang zaman dulu-dulu. They get married tapi lepas tu baru bercinta. Itu pun kalau sesuai, atau boleh masuk kepala. Macam tak berani je. Tapi boleh je orang zaman dulu-dulu buat. But I know I can't. My heart can't lie. Ever.


Sebab kan kannn, if I'm living or being together with someone I love, the feeling of sexcited sebab nak buat macam-macam tu banyak sampai tak tercapai. For example, mengidam nak memasak setiap hari pagi petang malam untuk orang tersayang ke, tetibe rajin nak buat kek or coklat sendiri sebab pemangkin tu ada. Nak belajar itu ini, decorate rumah la, apa la, nak buat apa pun semangat kemain. Kalau tak de perasaan tu, rasa macam, errr kena ke? Kena jugak ke masak? Eekekkekee... ok keji. I tau. That's why for me, getting married is a big deal. But i know, I'm still naive and living in my own fantasy so I might as well wake up and face the reality, and the reality tidak selalunya indah.


So, can I skip all this bitter part of my life, and wake up early in the morning, knowing that I'm getting married on that day, with the person I love. With the person that I'm willing to live with whether he's broke, or have deadly disease, or has no one and nothing's left for him, and I'm still willing to stay by his side. Eh?


Okay berangan only. I know I know.. Save your preach to someone else who wants to listen. Kejap lagi la baru I berpijak di bumi nyata k. Hihi.


*sambung tido*



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