Blissful Friday.

Laying on the floor while reading novel, drinking hot chocolate with marshmallow, surfing internet, chatting with someone special and listening to the radio all day long. What else could I ever asked for?

In case you're curious, ok maybe not, but I'm telling anyway, I've been listening to Red.fm since I woke up today. All the songs are heartwarming and makes me happy, most of the songs they played are my favorites, tak annoying macam stesen radio lain yang penuh iklan for 10 minutes, lepas satu lagu iklan lagi. Lepas iklan ulang lagu sama lagi.

Jadi hati adalah berbunga mendengarkan lagu-lagu indah. Ada pulak fresh red roses dalam bilik ni, bought it at Cameron Highlands few days ago. Bahagia!!!

Yeah I'm the kind of girl who easily feels happy and blessed over small wonderful things.

Sebenarnya hari-hari aku keluar, lepak, have fun, dan bersukaria for months. Seriously, dah lama I don't have time for myself. Not that I'm complaining. Aku memang lagi suka bersukaria and going out, chill out, lepak with friends doing things we love, but today, I realized that I need time for myself too.

I used to spend the whole day in my room, tak lepak, bersosial and not talking to any human being for days. Saja. At time like that, I managed to compose and write few songs. Memang ilham aku datang time-time macam tu. When I'm alone, I write songs based on what I feel, what I've been through, walaupun hasilnya disaster, biasa, tak best mana pun, tapi aku puas hati je because I write sincerely from my heart.

Sebenarnya I have lots of things to do. Tapi aku end up tak buat macam-macam lagi sebab selalu tangguh. I had fun too much, I think. I should start to balance out my life.

Since I have the chance now, maybe I should. Oh and, maybe because I finally have time for myself, I have the time to think about my life too.

And sebenarnya nak cerita ni, I have mixed feelings inside. Bitter, but I don't wanna think about it at all. Macam kena tikam-tikam jiwa.

Perasaan taik ini tak patut dipanjang-panjangkan. Seriously, I hate drama, fight, negative energy and things like that sebab I had enough of it. Senang cerita, if you, yourself, tak buat tahi kat orang lain, and you're surrounded by people who's always bring positive energy dan tak perangai cibai dan keji, you takkan rasa perasaan macam tahi itu.

Aku tak rasa perasaan tahi itu for awhile until I met few people, eh wait, maybe only one person. Which happen I already get rid of that person from my life. Selama ini aku akan menjarakkan diri dan takkan let any people like this into my life at all. Bosan dengan drama tahu. Lainlah kalau drama kau itu macam Gossip Girl or Grey's Anatomy, ada jugak aku nak layan. Layan sambil munch popcorn la. Takde makna aku nak stay and campur dan menyakitkan hati sendiri.

Terpanjang pulak cerita.
Kat mana dah tadi?

Sebenarnya nak cerita mixed feelings, yang lagi satu tu pasal hepi. Hihiii hepi hepi nak melompat-lompat je rasa. It feels so goooooooooood. When you know you don't have to chase happiness, and it's already standing right in front of you. Hoyeah !

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