I Wonder As I Wander

Friends, betrayal, backstabbing and siscode.

2011-09-15T09:07:00.000-07:00

Like guys, they have brocode among their friends, we girls also have our own siscode. For example, okay kau terserempak dengan your friend dekat club atau korang adalah geng hisap ganja bersama, atau kau nampak kawan kau dating dengan awek lain, kau tahu ianya adalah brocode yang perlu difahami. Don't tell my girlfriend about what I'm doing. Lelaki sesama lelaki, fahamlah.

Ya, aku pun faham.

Sebab most of my close friends adalah lelaki. Aku pun join brocode diorang. And yeah, I know it's not fair to their girlfriends tapi kalau tak rapat dengan aku, aku memang tak campur. Selalunya, aku hanya biar. But if they girl is close to me, I'll see what I can do. Sebab aku perempuan, I really understand their feelings.

Banyak juga taktik-taktik keji yang aku belajar dari kawan-kawan lelaki aku. Diorang memang kreatif, yang dah berkahwin pun jangan ceritala, lagi kreatif tahap kau tak akan tersangka diorang boleh tipu kau sampai macam tu. But good thing about my friends, they tell everyone they're married. Yang ada girlfriend pun, diorang tak rahsiakan pun status tapi perempuan-perempuan lain yang nak jugak, that's their fault.

Tapi perempuan pulak, the way diorang berkawan adalah lain. Kau akan jumpa 2 jenis perempuan sebagai kawan. Satu, berkawan dengan kau ikhlas, tak akan betray kau walau macam mana pun, will always be there for you.
Dua, berkawan baik dengan kau, tapi kau tak tahu setakat mana keikhlasan dia terhadap kau. Kalau pesen dengki dan simpan rasa dengki dalam hati tu, lagi keji. Lepas tu, sebarkan segala kisah dalam kain kau kat semua orang belakang kau.

Paling aku pantang sekali adalah, kalau kau adalah rapat dan baik dengan kawan kau tu, tak faham lagi ke kau jangan cuba-cuba sentuh lelaki yang kawan kau sayang, suka, cinta dan ada hati? Like for god sake, you really know how crazy and deeply in love or have a huge crush on this guy, you know that and you still want to have feelings towards that guy too?

I mean, dah tak ada lelaki lain ke kat dunia ni?

Tak kiralah kau setakat suka biasa-biasa, tak ada hati pun nak jadi gf or anything. She likes him a lot. You already know that. Motif nak jugak dah kenapa?

Apa kau pun suka tak kalau bestfriend kau tiba-tiba suka kat bf kau?
Mesti kau pun menggelupur jugak kan?

It's not about feeling insecure ke, nak have him all to you ke, it's another thing. Can you just respect your friend's feelings and let her be? Kalau your own bestfriend or friend tiba-tiba tersuka and have feelings to suami kau, seronok kot? Aku paling pantang perempuan-perempuan yang berkawan, tapi at the same time ada agenda lain. Kalau takde agenda pun, memang dah tersuka pun, hormat la kawan sendiri.

Now that's siscode.

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Blissful Friday.

2011-09-09T04:07:00.000-07:00

Laying on the floor while reading novel, drinking hot chocolate with marshmallow, surfing internet, chatting with someone special and listening to the radio all day long. What else could I ever asked for?

In case you're curious, ok maybe not, but I'm telling anyway, I've been listening to Red.fm since I woke up today. All the songs are heartwarming and makes me happy, most of the songs they played are my favorites, tak annoying macam stesen radio lain yang penuh iklan for 10 minutes, lepas satu lagu iklan lagi. Lepas iklan ulang lagu sama lagi.

Jadi hati adalah berbunga mendengarkan lagu-lagu indah. Ada pulak fresh red roses dalam bilik ni, bought it at Cameron Highlands few days ago. Bahagia!!!

Yeah I'm the kind of girl who easily feels happy and blessed over small wonderful things.

Sebenarnya hari-hari aku keluar, lepak, have fun, dan bersukaria for months. Seriously, dah lama I don't have time for myself. Not that I'm complaining. Aku memang lagi suka bersukaria and going out, chill out, lepak with friends doing things we love, but today, I realized that I need time for myself too.

I used to spend the whole day in my room, tak lepak, bersosial and not talking to any human being for days. Saja. At time like that, I managed to compose and write few songs. Memang ilham aku datang time-time macam tu. When I'm alone, I write songs based on what I feel, what I've been through, walaupun hasilnya disaster, biasa, tak best mana pun, tapi aku puas hati je because I write sincerely from my heart.

Sebenarnya I have lots of things to do. Tapi aku end up tak buat macam-macam lagi sebab selalu tangguh. I had fun too much, I think. I should start to balance out my life.

Since I have the chance now, maybe I should. Oh and, maybe because I finally have time for myself, I have the time to think about my life too.

And sebenarnya nak cerita ni, I have mixed feelings inside. Bitter, but I don't wanna think about it at all. Macam kena tikam-tikam jiwa.

Perasaan taik ini tak patut dipanjang-panjangkan. Seriously, I hate drama, fight, negative energy and things like that sebab I had enough of it. Senang cerita, if you, yourself, tak buat tahi kat orang lain, and you're surrounded by people who's always bring positive energy dan tak perangai cibai dan keji, you takkan rasa perasaan macam tahi itu.

Aku tak rasa perasaan tahi itu for awhile until I met few people, eh wait, maybe only one person. Which happen I already get rid of that person from my life. Selama ini aku akan menjarakkan diri dan takkan let any people like this into my life at all. Bosan dengan drama tahu. Lainlah kalau drama kau itu macam Gossip Girl or Grey's Anatomy, ada jugak aku nak layan. Layan sambil munch popcorn la. Takde makna aku nak stay and campur dan menyakitkan hati sendiri.

Terpanjang pulak cerita.
Kat mana dah tadi?

Sebenarnya nak cerita mixed feelings, yang lagi satu tu pasal hepi. Hihiii hepi hepi nak melompat-lompat je rasa. It feels so goooooooooood. When you know you don't have to chase happiness, and it's already standing right in front of you. Hoyeah !

-(ˆ▽ˆ)/ -(ˆ▽ˆ)- \(ˆ▽ˆ)-

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Too close to be apart. Too far to hold you tight.

2011-09-04T14:52:00.000-07:00

*Gambar adalah takde kena-mengena dengan tajuk*

It seems that I've been waiting for something that is not even there. I can't do anything except to wait and wait. For now.

Many people who came into my life doesn't really know what I've been through, good or worse. I have to leave the past behind but some of them think that I know nothing about love, life and everything. The way I act explained enough about what I've been through.
Tapi malas nak tunjuk je.

It's just, lesson learned. I don't want to repeat the same mistakes again so that I've been too cautious in everything I do.

Dah lah some of the people I know are so stubborn padahal they don't know what I said is based from what I've been through, from my observations and thinking. It is okay for them to be stubborn but when they think that they are always right, and assume that I know nothing about love and life, they thought wrong. And that's shallow.

Takde apa yang kau dapat bila judge orang bukan-bukan, based on something that you're not even sure betul ke tak. Plus, if he's/she's your own friend, why must you judge them? Just take them as they are, if you're a true friend.

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Manusia-manusia yang aku sayang.

2011-08-30T13:50:00.000-07:00

Blissful raya ♡♥

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Salam Aidilfitri

2011-08-30T13:30:00.000-07:00

Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir Batin to all muslims :)

Although I'm not that young anymore to receive duit raya, I still managed to get the same amount macam masa study dulu-dulu (thank God) and most importantly, I got to celebrate it with my family and cousins kesayangan. Sumpah, all the time asyik gelak je sampai pecah perut bila lepak with them.

First day raya was awesome. Super awesome I tell you. Camwhoring itu dah tentu. Dah sorang kaki camwhore, jumpa 10 kaki camwhore, nak pecah memory card kamera tu sebab bergambar. Pakai handphone pulak lagi.

Tapi tapi tapi... Harini je dah 10 kali lapar, 10 kali kenyang, lepas tu lapar balik. I don't know why. Blame my granma's cook for that. Sedap tahap dewa naga! Semua orang asyik lapar balik je lalu melantak. Hihi.

Hidangan raya as usual, ada nasi dagang, satay, kuah kuning ikan tongkol, nasi himpit, bla bla bla... *perut meletup*

Malam pula, tiba-tiba nenek masak lagi. Lepas tu cousin masak lagi. Lepas tu nenek nak potong buah pulak. Homaii.. Hahaaa.. Itu pun satu rumah kelaparan, dengan 4 big families kat sini, licin okay. Licin. Mungkin esok beraya pakai pyjamas je sebab perut dah tak muat pakai kebaya. Muahahaaaa.. okay tak kelakar. (-̩̩̩-̩̩̩-̩̩̩-̩̩̩-̩̩̩___-̩̩̩-̩̩̩-̩̩̩-̩̩̩-̩̩̩) *hiris lemak-lemak*

Tapi puas hati. It's raya after all. Main mercun is a must.

And we just done lepaking. Puasnya hati. I really wish everything won't change. I love it.

So how's your raya? I bet you guys have an awesome one too.

Salam aidilfitri. :D

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Final Destination 5

2011-08-25T00:02:00.000-07:00

Malas nak review. Tapi rasa macam cerita tu kejap sangat, tak sekejam macam previous movies tapi best.

We really had fun last night. Fathur my twins, emi, razien, dian and me. :)

Watched the movie at pavi (oh dah berkurun tak masuk kl). Tapi tapi.. Semalam macam ada keajaiban berlaku. Eh. Hihi. *tampar diri-sendiri*

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Can I just skip this part of my life and wake up on my wedding day?

2011-08-19T03:15:00.001-07:00

Because waiting for you to come into my life is like, forever. And it feels like you'll never appear anyway.

Would you?

If yes, when? (Pesen tak sabar. But don't bother answering it.)

Because heart being broken for thousand times makes me wonder, who's gonna be the one (if 'the one' is really exist) I'm going to marry one day. Honestly, I never think about this until just now.

Met a lot of people along the way and makes me wonder. Sometimes I wonder, what if I marry someone that I don't love, macam orang zaman dulu-dulu. They get married tapi lepas tu baru bercinta. Itu pun kalau sesuai, atau boleh masuk kepala. Macam tak berani je. Tapi boleh je orang zaman dulu-dulu buat. But I know I can't. My heart can't lie. Ever.

Sebab kan kannn, if I'm living or being together with someone I love, the feeling of sexcited sebab nak buat macam-macam tu banyak sampai tak tercapai. For example, mengidam nak memasak setiap hari pagi petang malam untuk orang tersayang ke, tetibe rajin nak buat kek or coklat sendiri sebab pemangkin tu ada. Nak belajar itu ini, decorate rumah la, apa la, nak buat apa pun semangat kemain. Kalau tak de perasaan tu, rasa macam, errr kena ke? Kena jugak ke masak? Eekekkekee... ok keji. I tau. That's why for me, getting married is a big deal. But i know, I'm still naive and living in my own fantasy so I might as well wake up and face the reality, and the reality tidak selalunya indah.

So, can I skip all this bitter part of my life, and wake up early in the morning, knowing that I'm getting married on that day, with the person I love. With the person that I'm willing to live with whether he's broke, or have deadly disease, or has no one and nothing's left for him, and I'm still willing to stay by his side. Eh?

Okay berangan only. I know I know.. Save your preach to someone else who wants to listen. Kejap lagi la baru I berpijak di bumi nyata k. Hihi.

*sambung tido*

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Chasing pavements

2011-08-17T10:32:00.000-07:00

Tajuk takde kena-mengena. I just like the song. Sebenarnya semua lagu Adele pun I suka.

Hari ini adalah berjimba di the Curve today with fathur emi and shah.

Tapi I pun macam blur apakah aktiviti kitorang sebenarnya. Okay we spent few hours in popular sampai dah mengengsot2 nak pilih buku.

And then bla bla bla, okay now tengah inzal ni listening to inaz's sister singing. Her voice is like dewi-dewi. Seriously.

Urghhh there are so many things I want to write here, but I don't know what should I write. Because this is not my first time blogging, and I think I need to keep some things to myself. The thing is, I must think wisely what to write and I'm really not good at it. Please slap me on the face for that.

Memang tak nak menyesal for writing stuffs that will haunt me later but macam nilah jadinya my blog. Like bo-ringgg. But lesson learned. So yeahh. Tunggu jelah episod akan datang. Kalau I mampu lah kan nak meluahkan. Sebab macam lah best sangat nak update aktiviti harian kat blog. Kesah pulak semua orang nak membacanya.

Zzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

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Perfect first date

2011-08-15T06:00:00.000-07:00

I've been reading chic's blog and bila dia bercerita pasal her perfect first date, ehh sama je with imaginasi aku. Memang I prefer simple and not too sweet sebab first date kan but tanakla tak sweet langsung. Mostly apa yang chics tulis memang semua boleh relate dengan diri aku. Siap kadang-kadang aku rasa tertekan kenapa aku tak cukup senget macam die tu. jadi silalah baca entry dia sebab it is exactly how i feel.

http://www.chicsinred.com/blog/2011/03/06/tres-my-idea-of-the-perfect-first-date

Except for the makan kat mamak part, I don't mind tapi aku tak pernah terfikir nak first date kat mamak. (Tak pernah terfikir tp pegi je jugak)

But the truth is, I have lost the sense of feeling excited bila nak date2 ni. Sebenarnya penat dan lelah dah nak dating, nak try get to know new person, lepas tu bercerita sikit-sikit.. Sambil2 tu kena jugak amik tau pasal that guy. Serious dah malas. Rasa give up pun ada.

Ditambah lagi dengan aku ni pesen malas nak amik tahu hal orang, kalau nak buat-buat concern tu memang tak la kan. Hal orang yang baru aku kenal pun aku malas nak amik tahu. Kecuali, KECUALI aku memang suka mamat tu. Memang seksaited nak tahu semua, kalau boleh nak biar dia sorang je bercakap lepas tu pandang mata dia and record suara dia dalam otak so lepas dating tu boleh teringat2 lagi. Hihi.

Ye memang aku jenis malas sangattt nak amik tahu, sebab bila first date, yang aku nak tengok selalunya cara dia treat aku and cara dia bawa diri, topik apa dia borak, dari situ aku boleh tahu. Ada jenis lelaki yang bercerita apa ntah, aku malas nak dengar sebab bosan. Walaupun mungkin aku pun membosankan jugak tapi kalau dua2 pun bosan, tak ke rasa nak balik cepat. Plus aku akan biar dia yang plan mana nak pegi makan semua, sebab kalau bukan dia yang decide, takkan aku pulak. Boleh je aku nak decide tapi kalau aku yang decide dulu, date-date lepas tu camana pulak? Relationship lepas tu pun nak aku decide jugak ke? Heee tak kann...

But I totally love my last date, it was the first date yang perfect for me with the latest person I've dated. Mula-mula adalah pagi, where we met halfway and then he teman me to go somewhere, tak dapat dielakkan. Ok sebab it happened the place is nearby so we went there lah. Honestly, memang aku suka ditemani orang tersayang pergi sana-sini, just I'm kind of independent, semua benda dah biasa buat sendiri but kalau nak ditemani adalah lagi berbunga-bunga rasa hati.

And then we went lunch, at mamak somewhere in damansara. Borak-borak with him, that's when I listened to the story of his life, and talked. Told you, I don't mind lepak at mamak. Because when I'm with someone I love, I won't complain. I don't care about where we go, as long as I'm with him. Who I'm with tu yang lebih penting. Plus, that's when we can always talk about everything. Borak-borak biasa ke, problem ke, anything.

Tapi tu kalau dengan orang yang kita suka lah kan. First date ni tak semestinya kita suka dan dia pun suka kita. Yang aku cerita ni, first date lepas masing-masing menyatakan perasaan hati. Eh.

Lepas tu adalah my favorite part, because we went to a park, yang ada lake and the place is so nice (my favorite place pula tu) and main gitar, he sang to me, I pun sama.. Habis semua lagu keluar. Aku pulak fail main gitar sebab tali gitar sendiri dah putus, tak reti pasang so lama gila tak main sampai lupa okay semua lagu. Tapi siap gigih lagi browse gitar chords pakai hp tetengah taman tasik tu hahaa. Ok sampaiiii hari nak gelap.

Macam tu pun dah sangat perfect. It's because ada dengan dia kot. Plus, I prefer date yang crazy and fun dari sweet and formal. Yes I do tp nanti kite pegi tepi pantai k?
Although we're not together anymore, but that kind of date memang menarik and I will always remember it.

No need to touch me or holding hands pun. He already touched my heart. Dinyanyikan pula lagu2 kan. Eh?

Ok dah lelebih. Ni macam kenangan last date ke apa?

Tapi point is aku nak cerita laaa yang date sempoi pun aku suka je. But I guess, a perfect date with different person depends jugak. Mungkin selepas ini ada yang lebih menarik. Okbai.

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I'm addicted to you, don't you know that you're a toxic !!

2011-08-15T00:15:00.000-07:00

Aku suggest adik aku lukis gambar ni atas kapkek.

Tapi die tanak layan permintaan aku :'(

Kenapa? Kenapaaaa???

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Cousins.

2011-08-12T13:33:00.000-07:00

Went back to hometown. Family gathering.

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Iftar with the Siblings

2011-08-11T06:57:00.000-07:00

Iftar with @apeng08, @naz_grazz, @mahathiresa, @vivifarish, @lahm3d, @shahfazan, @shafizisa, @amohdnor, @pecal23 and Elle.
Great blissful moment. ♥

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Al-fatihah.

2011-08-11T04:58:00.001-07:00

My 92 years old greatgrandmother passed away this evening. Just now. Right before berbuka.

I love her so so much. :'(

Moga rohnya aman di sana.

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You sang to me.

2011-08-10T03:14:00.001-07:00

Remember when you sang to me,

"Let's watch something random
Turned into something awesome."

HAYAKI.

2011-08-10T02:25:00.000-07:00

Berbuka with girlfriends, it was a bliss!

Too bad Yaa was not in the picture sebab she had to go home early. Had a colorful conversations with Ckin, Noor and Yaa. All of them are my family and also girlfriends sampai mati. Yes I can say that because they are my family and they're not going anywhere. :)

Hayaki ni not bad, 24 hours. The food there pun not bad. Tapi yang ni, you guys should try. I forgot the name but it's a dessert, mango something something. Hirisan mango memang fresh, lepas tu macam ada blend or juice mango dalam tu, oh my sumpah orgasm!!

Agak pelik kedai ni sebab at first Yaa and me nak order watermelon juice tapi Hayaki takde juice -_____-"

so we ordered watermelon ice blended instead. Hahaa pelik betul kedai ni. But the concept is nice. 24 hours, buffet pun murah. Only RM28 per head, buah-buahan nampak menyelerakan tapi kitorang tak order pun buffet. Sebab sorang satu dish dengan dessert pun masing-masing dah bersandar kekenyangan.

Tapi persoalan yang perlu direnungkan di sini, adakah penting Hayaki buka 24 hours bila Tutti Frutti dah bukak kat deret kedai dia?

twtup Captain America

2011-08-10T02:00:00.000-07:00

[siblings]

31/7/2011 Sunday.

too many pictures. Tapi saya sayang mereka ini. :)

Deeper Conversation.

2011-08-09T16:03:00.001-07:00

When I fall in love, I fall hard. When I love someone, I love hard.

But there's no use to explain anything to you or to anyone else. Trust is important. I trusted the person I've been together with, but I guess it doesn't work the same way.

I've never cheated on anyone, I am loyal. But why should I defend myself when I know that I didn't do anything? I know, Allah knows.

There are a lot of things I wanna say to you but I never told you.

I won't complain. Even if I won't hear a thing after this. Too bad because the day after, I managed to write a song. Some love it, as usual, some just think it's okay. But I don't mind. I wrote it for you. Sincerely for you.

I'll post it here after I done making the video. I hope I can make it done before raya. :)

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Selamat Berpuasa

2011-08-09T09:57:00.000-07:00

Sebenarnya dah 10 Ramadhan tapi baru nak wish. It's not too late, right? Kemain pulak tu nak bergambar baju dan tudung merah giteww.

My favorite place to go during ramadhan, of course to bazaar. Especially Bazaar taman Melawati sebab that's the only place I can find ikan pari bakar yang tersedap. Dah jelajah banyak bazaar tapi kat situ je yang sedap. Apa nak semua ada. Ok pelahap macam I memang semua pun nak. Tapi sebenarnya belum pergi pun bazaar melawati tahun ni. Cakap je nak kencang.

I've been to few bazaars, not bad lah. Mampulah memenuhi selera nafsu resakse I ni haa. My favorite is murtabak raja. Murtabak daging double cheese. Haa *kesat air liur*

Actually rindu nak pergi bazaar maluri. Kat sana boleh dapat stok mercun and bunga api. And oh, ada jagung bakar. Ok I think I should stop talking about food. Motif nak cerita sebenarnya I suka bazaar maluri tu. Bukan pasal makanan. (¬_¬) (yea rrright)

Eh tadi niat macam nak ucap selamat berpuasa je. Camana boleh keluar topik bazaar?

Takpe meh continue. I guess because I'm starting a new life, banyak benda baru I buat this year masa berpuasa. Berbuka dengan tweeples tu salah satu. And this week, berbuka dengan Siblings :) I can't wait for that.

Ok macam korang kesah pulak pasal kisah berbuka aku ni. Yang penting nanti nak bercamwhoring gambar main bunga api pula. Tu pun mcm korang kesah kan? Okbai.

Apa pun selamat menyambut ramadhan. :)

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I stopped believing in what I WANT to believe.

2011-08-09T09:34:00.001-07:00

"Every girl will believe in things that she WANTS to believe. That is our weakness. The only point to know that we're actually hurt."

Okay, that is so true.

And I should stop doing that too. :)

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twtupberbuka

2011-08-07T09:41:00.001-07:00

Twtup berbuka today at Ayam Golek Pantai Dalam with tweeples and it was one of the nicest twtup I've ever been to.

Ramai sangat tweeps so tak larat nak tag nama tapi sangat sedap tomyam tersebut dimakan bersama ayam golek, berserta sayur kailan dan daging masak merah. Omnomnomnom. <---gaya gadis urban terliur zaman sekarang.

Then headed to Rasta for Man U vs Manc with them.

But the best part is when Zeed sleeping over at my house for 2 days. Girls talk adalah heaven, ditambah lagi kami mengorek semua makanan dan buah dalam peti sejuk, main gitar and fufu like there's no tomorrow. I wanna do this again!!

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Loverboy.

2011-07-29T15:07:00.000-07:00

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MTV World Stage 2011

2011-07-26T03:51:00.000-07:00

I haven't update the full entry about Urbanscapes as I promised, and now there's MTV worldstage pulak.

24th July, Sunday, at i-city Shah Alam. Banyaklah band menarik like Pop Shuvit, Beast (my baby sister's favorite), Neon Trees and 30 Seconds to Mars performed that day.

Tujuan aku tulis entry ni sebab nak upload gambar je. Tapi pakai bb ni leceh la nak upload banyak-banyak. I'll update Urbanscapes pic first nanti ok.

I went with my baby sister, Aqish and @hariznasir , his sister Yaa and @apissepet , then we met other friends over there, @syamimkomi , @fafaraa , @iamlepp and others. Tapi sepanjang konsert tu I duduk belah lain because menemani my baby sis nak tengok band kegemaran dia.

My ex bf was there too. Nak jumpa !! Tapi tak sempat. Baru nak catching up, tapi masing-masing busy melayan lagu kan. Terpaksa berjanji lepak other time.

Drinks, as usual tak boleh bawak masuk and the drinks they sold they were super overpriced tapi takpelah, bought for my baby sis je. Sambil tu tumpang hirup-hirup sikit. Dah la tu, dalam banyak-banyak barang, we bought pink MTV flip-flops for ourselves. Kemain kan? Hehe

Overall, it was an awesome weekend!

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Saturday ♡♥

2011-07-23T08:03:00.000-07:00

Lately memang kerja tido lewat, bangun awal. I can't do anything about it as my body is super exhausted tapi tak dapat tido sebab terlalu penat.

Ok abaikan. *tikam eyebag*

Aku pun berniat nak tikam blogspot ataupun email aku. Sebab dah berapa kali post entry lepas tu hilang lepas tu entry tak keluar. Bugima tahu?

Ok abaikan lagi.

So as usual, memulakan pagi yang busy. Went here and there, isk busy nya. (Walaupun 80% punca kesibukan adalah berjalan-jalan), I mean kamonnnn! Sabtu kot. I is kenot stay at home. Plus, my parents and siblings were away for 2 days, jadi haruslah mencari aktiviti hokey.

Walaupun sebenarnya I prefer to stay at home, aku tak nak lah life yang tak produktif langsung ini terjadi buat masa ni. *kunyah keropok*

Btw, went to Damansara untuk berjimba and bumped into tweeples @zullicious @digitalskank and @soulzoul

Tomey lah. Ehem.

Ok seperti biasa, entri ini tiada motif. Hahaa. Aku pun tak faham kenapa aku gatal nak tulis blog.

Have a great weekend guys, coz I know I will. Yes, I definitely will. -(ˆ▽ˆ)/ -(ˆ▽ˆ)- \(ˆ▽ˆ)-

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I miss you bodoh.

2011-07-22T09:20:00.000-07:00

I always appreciate what I have, the way people make me feel, and I can't ever do or say bad things about others who have been nice to me because once, they made me feel so good and happy.

Like loverboy did.

The early stage of relationship, it is always nice, sweet and happy. Full of love.

But when something happen, the other party lost his feelings towards her (or otherwise), and when they break up, things become ugly.
Full of hate.

Tel me, why must things turn out that way?

Why can't they just be nice to each other, still respect each other like they used to and not showing everyone how ugly the situation is when they are not together anymore?

I mean, they used to love each other. They used to respect each other. They used to spend their time together. They used to talk about everything to each other.

And although they have gone separate ways, why can't they just not telling everyone the bad side of someone they used to be in love with?

I guess... Everyone's hurt and it depends on their maturity.

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Rhythm of love

2011-07-21T18:11:00.000-07:00

This is one of my favorite songs, and I can't never get enough of it. Sang by Meeko, a very talented girl but she said that she haven't record this song properly. Punyalah aku obses dengan lagu ni sampaikan aku add them on facebook and ask them to record it.

http://www.box.net/shared/kda2s3hl5t

Live recording of lagu original, Song for You

vox by meeko all the way from Sabah!

Music: meeko & me & KLIUC drum circle
Lyrics: meeko

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its hard for me to say
how i feel at this time
this feeling has thrown me away

im now too blind to see
what has got into me
can you just understand me?

i want us to be like we used to be
when we were together you made me laugh
made me smile
you have brighten my days and now
everything has ended just like that
just like that

ohh ohhh
and now everything has ended just like that..

now my days are not
as bright as before
i just feel the emptyness in my life
i know you dont need me
but please dont leave me
please come back

i want us to be like we used to be
when we were together you made me laugh
made me smile
you have brighten my days and now
everything has ended just like tht
just like that..

now i realize
how much you're mean to me
i need you....

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original source : cari forum music board

Urbanscapes 2011

2011-07-21T10:15:00.000-07:00

I want to update about this cool event that just happened on last Saturday, on 16th July at Padang Astaka but as usual, I'm too lazy to upload all of the pictures.

To sum it up, it was a hell of fun day, great event and actually, I can't get enough of it. Especially the last performance by Lapsap. Homaii, rasa tak nak balik tahu? It was fun because I had the right people to get crazy with.

Met a lot of friends there especially tweeples, had so much fun sampai mood tu dah 2 hari berlalu urbanscapes pun still happy gila.

I'll update about it and upload the pictures in another entry. Pakai bb pun still leceh nak upload semua (-̩̩̩-̩̩̩-̩̩̩-̩̩̩-̩̩̩___-̩̩̩-̩̩̩-̩̩̩-̩̩̩-̩̩̩)

So til then, have a great day :*

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Life will get better, honey. I promise.

2011-07-14T18:38:00.001-07:00

I spent most of the time in my room, thinking of what had happened and how could some people do that to me. Especially the closest friends, I learned that there is no guarantee in life when it comes to relationships. Be it with friends, lovers, or family. Some people will hurt you more than you can ever imagine. And I've been there. Too many times.

I never lose hope and faith. I always believe the best in people. I'm sincere and honest, thinking that my friends will do the same to me.

But honey, that's not how life works.

You never know that your bestest friends who sleeps in one bed with you, or shares a plate and eat together all the time, and you think you know them for the past 5 years could turn behind your back and stab you. You don't know that they actually hated you, with some reason that you'll never know, and one day you got to know about it from strangers.

It hurts, right?

But yeah. Itu semua perkara kecil. Semakin kau meningkat dewasa, semakin kuat dugaan akan kau terima.

Ya, kau tak dapat lari dari perasaan kecewa. Kau takkan dapat lari dari perasaan hasad dengki manusia. Tapi kau masih mampu selamatkan hati kau dari noda dunia.

Don't be like them. Let them hurt you and you can always come back stronger.

I used to feel so down and mellow. I used to sleep all day in my room for months or maybe years, blaming all those people who had hurt me so bad. I know that if they know how I really feel, living that kind of miserable life, they will laugh happily. I've tried to think positive, but too many people hurt me, the wound is too deep I don't even know how to make it heal. But blaming them is just another way of escapism. Do that and let the world know that you're hurt, but you also have other choice, like get up from the bed and start to live the life and willing to take a risk and give a chance to yourself to be happy.

All I see, everyone is happy with their life. I want that too. And that's what I do. Life goes on, and I don't care anymore. I don't wanna care about those people who hurt me or have the potential to hurt me. Taking care of my heart is much more important.

And believe me, along the way, you will find the bestest friends you never thought you gonna have. I've found mine. Because I know that they won't betray me and they are the one who stay when I was alone and miserable. You'll be surprise to know that such people are still exist in this world. I thank god for that.

You wouldn't know what's gonna happen in the future. But yes, you can build your own happiness. You can cry when you feel so weak inside, but you need to get back up when life knocks you down. A little cut and wound won't hurt too much. Just let it be your life lesson and the scars will reminds you of how strong you are to get through life :)

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random awesome.

2011-07-14T17:40:00.001-07:00

It's raining heavily here in Kuala Lumpur. 8.30 in the morning and I'm still underneath my blanket. Sejuk tahu?

But I always love hujan. I love the sound of the raindrops, I love the feeling when I have to walk in the rain, I love it when I can sit while having tea, watching the rain from inside while dreaming about good things in life. It's a bliss!

I don't know what is up with me lately. I woke up everyday feeling so cold (without the aircond on) and I feel sick. Too cold for me to handle. Sudahlah aku tak tahan aircond, kipas pun tak boleh ke? (-̩̩̩-̩̩̩-̩̩̩-̩̩̩-̩̩̩___-̩̩̩-̩̩̩-̩̩̩-̩̩̩-̩̩̩)

I'm typing while listening to Captain and Tennille song. Do That To Me One More Time. Romantik kan? Dah lah tengah hujan. Yeah, I wish that I can wake up to this kind of songs every morning. :)

Okay what I'm trying to say is I love rain. Okthxbai.

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Darlin it ain't easy.

2011-07-13T13:37:00.001-07:00

I kinda miss you and your smell, not forgetting your laughs and the things we share.

You might make me angry, and I might scream at you but we know deep inside, I just wanna hug you.

He stood by and be my friend. How can you not fall for that? He loves me during my most vulnerable moment. That's just endearing.

And if there's any reason I'll have to think twice in case I feel like leaving him, is mostly because of this. He doesn't judge me and let me be myself. And I couldn't feel more happier.

The reason I won't leave him is because of himself. He's the sweetest thing ever, and I thank god for having him in my life :)

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Find my way back to you.

2011-07-13T12:37:00.000-07:00

Hi all.

This is my very first entry for 2011.

I miss my old blog, Berjalan Dalam Hujan. It was around 2005. Then around October 2007, I published this blog until 2009.

No I didn't stopped blogging. I can't never stop writing.

I read through my old writings and I didn't realized that I love photography that much, I uploaded so many good photos [good for me at least] and now, I've stopped taking photo. I don't know what my blog is gonna be like but I'll write sincerely, I promise.

And yeah, I guess this is a new beginning. So hello :)

Lost in the Love War.

2011-07-13T12:32:00.000-07:00

I guess this lonely journey is gonna take longer than I thought.

But I'll fight for it.

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Bling Bling Cuppies

2011-07-13T11:44:00.000-07:00

My english class project.
storyline and editing, and all by me.

sementara itu...

2010-02-18T22:59:00.000-08:00

nikmatilah.

my tumblr

thank you =)

ERASING MY PAST. YEAH.

2010-02-18T19:19:00.000-08:00

Bye bye past.